Journey of Happiness

H uff! Can believe that May is almost over... this year has gone like a blur! Life's been upside down for me this month. I think I am literally going more and more insane (i.e., I was already insane, just becoming worse!). Honestly, I think I am going down the hills. It's a TOUGH month, May is. It throws me out of the league, I feel. I got my paper rejected for the second time, so that's my hope of going to Paris in September gone out of the window. Why? Simply because 2 out of the 3 anonymous reviewers did not like our 'Logics'. Ack! When you spent so much time investing and sweating over a paper, blood and sweat and your sanity, a rejection is never good. Nope, I did not cry. Did not feel sad. Did not panic. It was Lan and my mother going heads over heels. Not me... I was more... discouraged, I'd say. It kills my buzz. It takes away all that's in me to finish this race. Much more fatal and scary than the panic and the sadness. It makes me struggle. Badly. ...

And the seed that You sowed grow... Into a little plant, Rooting on the best soil, With its tiny green leaves. Thank you, Lord, for nurturing him. Thank you, for letting me witness the work of Your hands in my husband's life. It is a joy to hear his desire is to serve and that his passion is for Your Kingdom.

U gh... lately my body is totally not feeling well! I get tired so easily and my shoulders are so often painful =( This really makes me want to go home and have a full body massage! How I wish my home is only so close to me =( UK is back to a series of gloomy days lately. It rains rains and rains a lot! The temperature also gets colder... it really does not feel like spring at all! But, hey, life goes on! After the 'false' positive a few weeks ago, I was quite down and sad. My body was in a mess too... but I guess I can do nothing about it. It was just not our time yet. It brought me back to the reality that I wanted it too much that I became obsessed and I felt disappointed too easily. Life does not always go my way... Yeah I should've remembered that before feeling all ugly and sad like that. =( Anyhow, this month will be super duper busy for me... Things just keep piling on top of my list and I have been procrastinating a lot lately. Blah... that's for being a lazy m...