Thursday, December 31, 2009

Auld Lang Syne!

Here is my quick glance over year 2009... I remember it started badly with a chronic eczema all over my body, which resulted in many different things happening after that:
  • First is me being so depressed and messed up.
  • Second is where a decision to take a 3-months suspension on my study was made, giving me 3 months to be at home with my family (without Lan there though *sob*)
  • Third is where I was so discouraged that I almost called it a quit on my study!

What a year, huh?! It was a year full of process for Lan and I.
Our marriage was much better than the first year (Thank God for that!). I got to learn being much more patient than I used to be, he got to learn about the 'reality' of marriage! LOL!
We both got to learn to cling to The Lord more each day of our lives that He gives the best (and always the best) for our family. He blessed us abundantly this year; Lan got his paper accepted to a conference and published in a journal, he also got to go to Montreal, Canada. Hallelujah!
As for me, after getting back on my feet, things gradually get better! This semester I've found a calculus, which boosted my confidence and both of my supervisors'. And, I am in the process of proofing and writing it up to become a paper, which hopefully will be accepted by a conference next year. Amen!

And no matter the ups and the downs, the only thing that sticks to my mind and my heart is that The Lord has been good and is always good to us! I see His hands guiding and protecting us continually day upon day of our journey. He never leaves us.
So for the new year that is arriving upon us in 6 more hours, my faith is thicker than it's ever been that He will take us in another WONDERFUL journey! There are many wishes and desires, let them be only spoken aloud in Lan's and my heart (for The Lord, He hears the unspoken), may The Lord grants according to His will! Amen!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Christmas is NOT over!

How was your Christmas day, friends? Some people are actually very relieved that Christmas is over together with all the festivities and the business that went along with it... Well, for me, Christmas is not over, Christmas is everyday, all year long... because, every day I need Jesus, every day I live for Him, through Him and because of Him. :)

Last week had been a relaxing one. We've stayed at home and I liked it. Resting and taking my mind off from study for a bit. I did get quite sick for a few days, though... I got an ulcer, which painfully locate itself on my jaw! I had migraines for 3 days non-stop, swelling on my left cheek and difficulties to eat. It was kind of having a little diet! I had to eat porridge, simply because I couldn't chew! Phew... Thank God, with a huge amount of orange juice, fruit and veggies, I am much better now.

The weekend was tiring, because we had a fight. Nope, it's never good when we fight... Exhausting mentally and physically for both of us. Being both 'highly' educated makes us both pig-headed! Plus, the differences in principles, family background, origins, make things even harder. However, life goes on because of FORGIVENESS! Yep, that's how powerful forgiveness is! No matter how hurt and painful the fight caused, forgiveness heals. Thank The Lord for that!
Sometimes, in these 2 years, we found ourselves like water and oil, questioning 'why' on our marriage. But, really, it's just an illusion, which during angry moments, overrides the truth. The truth that The Lord chose the two of us to be together for a purpose and that He never fails. And I hang on to that truth, always.

And, today, though the University is still officially closed, here we are both sitting on our chairs to do our work... which, instead of doing that, I am blogging bwahahaha...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I am UTTERLY happy today!

I am so so HAPPY today! I feel so blessed both by The Lord and Lan today! :)
It has been a day full of surprises and blessings.
This Christmas, I knew I got my very first book of 40 scrap-layouts printed out from Lan. However, somehow, the book, which had been sent a month ago, has not yet arrived at our door post! I am quite upset about it as I was so excited and looking forward to getting it in my hands very much. I am so glad though, that the printing company has been very generous by reprinting and re-sending it again.
My husband, with his so kind heart, saw me upset and gave me nice surprises today. On the way to Tesco to buy grocery today, he picked up some treats for me. I got some nice orange juice, some all-butter shortbread cookies and this new baby that I've been wanting!

1TB hard drive, isn't that sweet? With all the scrapping that I do, my laptop was getting crowded. So, I've got this new baby sitting on my table now :) Thanks, Honey!

Then... you know what? The Lord answered my prayer of wanting WHITE Christmas! It's been snowing on and off these few days and rain always came too soon to wash it away... BUT, tonight, yes, TONIGHT, I suddenly had the urge to peak out of the window... it was heavily snowing! So... I asked Lan whether we can go and play outside to take some photos. It was FUN! We played outside so happy... And we took lots of photos, which are waiting for me to scrap with!

Well, I am here, simply because we decided to return home because our camera was getting quite wet :D Still... I am SO HAPPY today! :)

Thank you, LORD!

Ps. Do you like my blog's new look? :D

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Welcoming 2010

Gosh, this year has flown so fast... I cannot believe it is almost the beginning of a new year already! Time rotated around me like a breeze.
To think back on this year, I can only smile and smile... It was a year of God's provision in our little family. I've seen many unbelievable things happened in our lives and for all of those, I can only give thanks to The Lord. He's been more than just GOOD.
I am so thankful that I was shown how The Lord takes care of my family and that His Hands never fail to sustain us. The way He teaches Lan by Himself (sometimes I am amazed by the words that Lan says by himself!), the Grace that brings our family even closer together, the holiday wishes that came true (Dubai!) and many little but so-sweet things that came into my life. And above all, I am grateful for his guidance on my study; how I once felt like quitting and He encouraged me through my beloved ones. How He provides, oh how He provides... not just financially but in everything He provides; the joy, the happiness, the peace. Even to me it's a miracle that a couple of PhD students, who live on scholarships can have an awesome holiday in Dubai! Only The Lord can do that for us. :)

I look forward to 2010. I am sure it is a year full of goodness from The Lord! Even more than what 2009 had held for us. Many things we have plans for 2010, we surrender them all to The Lord. If He permits... they shall be done and be even more awesome that our own plans! Amen.
I am excited for the new year... I pray that Lan's thesis will finish soon and for him to do an EXCELLENT job on it, then impressing his examiners further during his viva and I am anticipating for his graduation in July. I will be a VERY VERY proud wife of him! I have faith that he DOES an exceptional job on it. I know he does.
And, soon after that, the job that HAS been waiting for him will arrive at his doorstep. And, by then, we plan for our junior(s). :)
As for our 2010 holiday agenda, we have Europe and Beijing in mind. So we will pray and pray hard for miracles.
Oh, a target for myself is to finish PhD by this time of NEXT year. Yep, I am aiming myself to finish my PhD in 3 years and NO more. So, that goes by telling myself to WORK HARD!
Last but not least, I hope that we go to Church more often next year than this year. Sorry, Lord, I know we've been stupidly lazy on this task...

Oh well, before I start blabbering around, let's put it to a stop for now ;) And here is our wish for all of you:
Have a blessed Christmas

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Renungan: Yang Tidak Bisa Diucapkan Ayah

This story is not mine, but I am glad my best friend shared it with me... It brought tears to my eyes when I read this. It's so so true. (Sorry, to my non-Indonesian friends, that this is written in Indonesian)

Biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja jadi perantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri, yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya...
Akan sering merasa kangen sekali dengan Mamanya... Lalu bagaimana dengan Papa?
Mungkin karena Mama lebih sering menelepon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari, tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata Papa-lah yang mengingatkan Mama untuk menelponmu?

Mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, Mama-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng, tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sepulang Papa bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah Papa selalu menanyakan pada Mama tentang kabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

Pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil...
Papa biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik sepeda. Dan setelah Papa mengganggapmu bisa, Papa akan melepaskan roda bantu disepedamu...
Kemudian Mama bilang : "Jangan dulu Papa, jangan dilepas dulu roda bantunya", Mama takut putri manisnya terjatuh lalu terluka...
Tapi sadarkah kamu? Bahwa Papa dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu mengayuh sepeda dengan seksama karena dia tahu putri kecilnya PASTI BISA.

Pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta boneka atau mainan yang baru, Mama menatapmu iba. Tetapi Papa akan mengatakan dengan tegas: "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang."
Tahukah kamu, Papa melakukan itu karena Papa tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi?

Saat kamu sakit pilek, Papa yang terlalu khawatir sampai kadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata: "Sudah dibilang! kamu jangan minum air dingin!".
Berbeda dengan Mama yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut. Ketahuilah, saat itu Papa benar-benar mengkhawatirkan keadaanmu.

Ketika kamu sudah beranjak remaja...
Kamu mulai menuntut pada Papa untuk dapat izin keluar malam, dan Papa bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".
Tahukah kamu, bahwa Papa melakukan itu untuk menjagamu? Karena bagi Papa, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa berharga...
Setelah itu kamu marah pada Papa, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu. Dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan membujukmu agar tidak marah adalah Mama.
Tahukah kamu, bahwa saat itu Papa memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya, bahwa Papa sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, Tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang cowok mulai sering menelponmu, atau bahkan datang kerumah untuk menemuimu, Papa akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia... :')
Papa sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang ngobrol berdua diruang tamu.
Sadarkah kamu, kalau hati Papa merasa cemburu?
Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan Papa melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya. Maka yang dilakukan Papa adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khawatir...
Dan setelah perasaan khawatir itu berlarut - larut... Ketika melihat putri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati Papa akan mengeras dan Papa memarahimu.
Sadarkah kamu, bahwa ini karena hal yang di sangat ditakuti Papa akan segera datang? Bahwa putri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkan Papa...

Setelah lulus SMA, Papa akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Dokter atau Insinyur.
Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan Papa itu semata-mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti...
Tapi toh Papa tetap tersenyum dan mendukungmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan Papa

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain...
Papa harus melepasmu di bandara.
Tahukah kamu bahwa badan Papa terasa kaku untuk memelukmu?
Papa hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasehat ini - itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati. Padahal Papa ingin sekali menangis seperti Mama dan memelukmu erat-erat.
Yang Papa lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".
Papa melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT... kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu butuh uang untuk membiayai uang semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah Papa. Papa pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya bisa merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain.
Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekedar meminta boneka baru, dan Papa tahu ia tidak bisa memberikan yang kamu inginkan... Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Papa adalah : "Tidak... Tidak bisa!" Padahal dalam batin Papa, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan: "Iya sayang, nanti Papa belikan untukmu".
Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu Papa merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu diwisuda sebagai seorang sarjana, Papa adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu. Papa akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat putri kecilnya yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang.
Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada Papa untuk mengambilmu darinya. Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin.
Karena Papa tahu... Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti. Dan akhirnya, saat Papa melihatmu duduk di Panggung Pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang dianggapnya pantas menggantikannya, Papa pun tersenyum bahagia...
Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu Papa pergi ke belakang panggung sebentar, dan menangis? Papa menangis karena papa sangat berbahagia, kemudian Papa berdoa...

Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Papa berkata: "Ya Tuhan tugasku telah selesai dengan baik... Putri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita yang cantik. Bahagiakanlah ia bersama suaminya..." Setelah itu Papa hanya bisa menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk.
Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya...
Papa telah menyelesaikan tugasnya...
Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita...
Adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat...
Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis...
Dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu. .
Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU BISA" dalam segala hal..

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Noel...

I've loved listening to the classic Christmas songs for as long as I can remember. And this season, I love listening to the radio, when they play all those Christmas songs. And this year, one song that particularly caught my attention is "The First Noel".
I love the lyric, how the song tells the story of the star of the east, the birth of our Lord, Jesus... how the song tells the TRUE meaning of Christmas...
These days, Christmas is all about presents, trees, and ornaments to some people. But really, it is all about Jesus. It's a celebration of how much He loves us.

Let us remember the First Noel...

The First Noel, the Angels did say
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields as they lay
In fields where they lay keeping their sheep
On a cold winter's night that was so deep.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

They looked up and saw a star
Shining in the East beyond them far
And to the earth it gave great light
And so it continued both day and night.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

And by the light of that same star
Three Wise men came from country far
To seek for a King was their intent
And to follow the star wherever it went.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

This star drew nigh to the northwest
O'er Bethlehem it took its rest
And there it did both Pause and stay
Right o'er the place where Jesus lay.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

Then entered in those Wise men three
Full reverently upon their knee
And offered there in His presence
Their gold and myrrh and frankincense.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

Then let us all with one accord
Sing praises to our heavenly Lord
That hath made Heaven and earth of nought
And with his blood mankind has bought.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

Lyric was taken from here.
To listen to the song, go here, it's my favourite :)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Baking Cookies Paper + Cookie exchange - Digi Style!

Today, Michelle has released an essential paper pack, called "baking cookies"! Isn't that a cute name? And aren't those papers lovely? They are so versatile that they are a must-have!

They are on sale for $3.00, but, as usual, it's 20% off until Friday! So go and grab it fast! Here is a double-page LO that I've made using one of the papers in baking cookies.

Are you still tuning in? Well, if you do, you won't regret it because we have some goodies for you! Michelle and us the CT have prepared a little fun blog train for all of you to celebrate the upcoming Christmas! It's a Cookie-recipes blog train! We hope that by sharing all these tasty cookie and treat recipes, we help you to cook up some great treats for this holiday season!

Just follow this blog train to collect lots of tasty cookie and treat recipes - HAPPY HOLIDAYS from the DESIGNS BY MICHELLE BATTON CREATIVE TEAM! (Click the images or the download link below to get the recipes!)



DOWNLOAD #1




DOWNLOAD #2


And here are the rest of the stops on the blog train. Please remember we are all in different time zones, so if someone's recipes aren't up yet, please try back again later!

1. Michelle http://www.mellowbutterfly.com
2. Cindy http://scribler.blogspot.com/
3. Jane http://4shadesofbluedesigns.blogspot.com/
4. Jamie http://www.jamie-cupcake.blogspot.com
5. Sherly http://nyempluk.blogspot.com/ <--YOU ARE HERE
6. Tara http://geekchicscraps.blogspot.com/
7. Beth http://sweetmesquite.blogspot.com/

Okie dokie! I hope you enjoy our little treats for you! Happy holidays! :)

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Over-tired!

This week I was SO busy. I mean, really... somehow there were so many things to do; tutorials and teaching, a friend's party, and many other things! I feel so tired and exhausted!
Thank God I managed to do the things I am supposed to do, including baking the cupcakes I promised I'd do for the friend's party. I am glad everyone liked them (or so they said!).
We were glad to come to our friend's (Dirk) farewell party. He's one of our colleagues in the Computer Science Department and he's leaving for Madrid in a few weeks for a new job. We wish him all the best and hope that he'll enjoy the sunshiny Madrid, which is much better than the gloomy Liverpool! LOL! We saw some of our old friends there too. It was nice to have a chat with them and catch up with each other's news. :)

Oh well... a new week is starting tomorrow... Gonna be busy again, but I hope I can make more progress for my research than this week. >.< Time is ticking!
I pray that The Lord will strengthen me to do all that I have to do. Amen!

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Counting days to Christmas: day 2

First of all, I am sooooo happy that Amy Stoffel has asked me to return to her Creative Team permanently last week! What an honor! I am absolutely delighted to be in her very very FUN team and she has awesome designs too! So, I say I am totally proud to be creating for her :)

Well, this month, Scrap Orchard has a HUGE celebration to welcome Christmas. Each day of this month there will be one designer's shop that will be 50% off! Yep, you read it right, 50% off! And guess what? Today, it's Amy's Shop! So, go and grab a bargain! This only happens ONCE a year and for ONE DAY ONLY, so you would not want to let it pass :D



That's NOT all! Today, she released 2 adorable and stunning kits: Angel Song and I'll be home for Christmas. Here are the previews and the layouts I made for these:
Angel Song




I'll be home for Christmas



Ps. All the images are linked to the shop/the corresponding kits.
Lovely kits, aren't they? Well, go and grab your bargain of Amy's goodies now! :)

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Christmas-y

Out of seasons of the year, I love this season of Christmas so much. The festivities, the celebration of Christ, the beautiful twinkling and sparkling lights in the shops and each corner of everywhere, they all warm my heart during the icy cold cruel winter.
It's like, although some people don't really take Christmas as a celebration of Christ's birth, they still celebrate Christmas. They gather together and have Christmas dinner; family, love, warmth and happiness is all around Christmas. I love that.

And although we don't have a Christmas tree up in our home, we will be celebrating Christmas with a proper English Christmas dinner this year, upon Lan's request. So, there will be roasted chicken, gravy and roasted vegetables! Mmmm... deliciously mouth-watering! The last time I cooked proper Christmas dinner was in 2005, when I went to Brighton the first time to visit my brother. Time flies...
We're not having Christmas holiday anywhere except at our own little home this year... simply because Lan is busy with his thesis and I have to prepare a paper to be submitted on 22nd January. So, we will be going to office everyday, probably.

Anyhow, I am grateful that lately it's been rarely raining here in Liverpool. A dry winter is much better, although it is still very very COLD! It's been icy and chilly, so I've been wearing a lot! Never ever go out without mittens, hat, scarf, water-proof coat and boots. Otherwise... brrrrr... >.<

Oh well, that's a little chit chat for today. I am just tired and need to do something other than Computer Science-related things!!! :D

Friday, November 27, 2009

Farmer's Market

I am so delighted that Suzy accepted my application to be in her Creative Team (CT) and even more delighted that she is selling exclusively at my favourite Scrapbooking shop, Scrap Orchard!

And to celebrate Thanksgiving, Scrap Orchard is having a Farmer's Market, where a lot of goodies are for $1 each!! $1 is a hugeee bargain! And today, I'd like to highlight one cool kit, Celebrate, and cute alpha, Laugh Out Loud, that I've played with and love them to bits! What's better is that they are for $1.00 ONLY until Sunday, 29 November 2009!!!





Here are the layouts that I made with the above gorgeous kit! Both are little gifts for MJ and Christophe. :) Aren't they adorable?




Click on the images to see the full credits and on the kits' previews to be directed to the store right away.
So, what are you waiting for? The clock is ticking and when it's gone, it's gone!
Happy thanksgiving and have a blessed weekend!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Merry and Bright + a freebie

Hi ya!!! Can you believe that Christmas is only a MONTH away?! I know! Time flies crazily... It's almost a new year again! Gosh, where did time go?!
Anyhow, today, Michelle Batton has released a new Christmas-y mini kit called "Merry and Bright". As you see from the preview below, it's not the usual-traditional (red-green-gold) Christmas kit, but it's awesome! I love the bright blue and green in this! Totally gorgeous and versatile, even for some non-Christmas themed layout.



Here is an LO I've made with this kit:

Credits:
Pencil Lines template 161
Merry and Bright by Michelle Batton Designs at The Digi Chick
Fonts: Arial, MTF Under Your Skin and MTF Base Outline by Miss Tiina

What's even more fantastic is that she's having a 20% SALE through 29th November for everything in the shop! Isn't that a bargain?!



Oh oh, and we have a freebie for you! I've made this December desktop wallpaper using Merry and Bright and there are 2 sizes available: 1024x768 and 1280x800. The only catch is that you have to go to Michelle's blog to grab them! So, what are you waiting for? Go to her blog and her shop and have a blast!

Monday, November 23, 2009

Procrastination!

Argh!!! I am procrastinating the whole day today!!! I know that I've got a lot to do... especially after a meeting on a Monday morning! But, heck! I can't bring myself to do any work!
I keep clicking here and there on my firefox. Not good! Really not good! The weather makes it worse, too... the rain and the cold make me want to stay under the cozy and warm blanket of mine in bed!
Heck! It's 16.35, but already looks like 20.00 at night outside! Aarrrggghhh... I want to snooze. What do I do?!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Twilight Saga: New Moon!

Don't worry, I won't spoil the fun. But, I'm sorry I might make you all jealous... I had so much fun today!!
Gosh, I loveeeeeeee New Moon! It is so so much better than Twilight! The seats were full and overflowed with people, who were cheering every now and then at the scenes. It was such an exciting atmosphere! Amazing! And as gorgeous as Jacob's new look could be, I am still team Edward! *woo hoo!* I would love to watch it again and again, but Lan said, wait for the DVD... *sob sob sob* But I have to agree with him! No way I can beat the queue! It was a crazy bunch of crowds there!

Well, I know that the New Moon fever is not over yet, but here I am honestly saying: I CAN'T WAIT FOR ECLIPSE!!! 30 June 2010, bring it over, baby!!!

Ps. Oh man, I'm crazy!
Ps2. after the movie, we had dinner at Yo-Sushi! Yummy yum! I got a 30% off voucher for my birthday! We, of course, took our camera with us and got to play with the new lens (aka 50mm)! That lens, baby, is one awesome lens! Oh yeah, I'm loving it!
Will share the photos later on today... ;)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Today...

started with my very first cervical screening (pap smears), Thank God it was quick and not quite as scary as I thought...
Then, coming to office, greeted with a few 'happy birthday's from colleagues. Some even sang the song, which made me blushed crazily! We brought cake to office, so that they can enjoy the treat :) They were happy with it. The day went on quick with me chatting with my Mum. It has been awhile. It's good to talk to her again. Lunch was not the normal routine, Lan and I decided to join our colleagues to eat out instead of going home and cook.

Today is special because I got a special letter from Yulia, the letter I had been waiting for. What a perfect timing!
Today is special because I got 80+ emails in my inbox from all of my dear friends wishing me happy birthday and praying awesome prayers for me. Thank you, all of you!
Today is special because I feel blessed, loved and remembered.
Today is a remembrance day for me of all the great things my Jesus has done and is continuing doing in my life. I am more than thankful for who I am and every little bits that happen in my life.

Well, last but not least, today, I am 25! LOL!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Birthday gift(s) from God

Lately, despite the cold dreary winter days, I am blessed to see the sun shining. Just to see a sunshiny-day, it makes me smile! It makes my day a lot better. And, I'd love to think of it as The Lord is smiling at me, that is one of the best birthday gifts that I get for my birthday tomorrow. :)
A few of friends have been asking about how I'm coping winter, especially about my eczema. Well, both Lan and I are anxious about it, however, I praise God that so far it is not a tiny bit as bad as last winter. Yes, they still come, a bit on my face (that is one that I hate the most!), bits on my body parts, but they are manageable. I am still able to sleep, thanks to Lan, who's bought me an under blanket to keep me warm at night, thus my skin is not drying out badly.
Another birthday gift I got this year from The Lord is a realisation on how lovely my parents-in-love (law) are! To know that they love me like their own daughter, that they want the best for me and my health, that they care every tiny bit of me... that knowledge is priceless above all. More than I've dreamed of; my loving husband and his loving parents. An amazing package that rarely occurs! I am glad for them, for The Lord to put them in my life. And for that, I love my parents-in-love to bits too! Sure, I can't describe it yet to them, sure I'm yet able to have effective communications with them... but, above all, my love grows for them. I can honestly hug them and sincerely love them the way I love my own parents. And that feeling is beautiful!
And, yet, another birthday gift for God is a positive progress on my research. I am thankful for my supervisors, who are so encouraging and believing in my potential and helping me every time I need them. I pray Lord that our plan to submit a paper to conference(s) in January will come true and that You give me wisdom to finish the paper on time! Amen!

Oh... I feel spoiled! I feel loved and that's a great feeling! Thanks to Simon, whom we had dinner with yesterday, for remembering my birthday and buying me a birthday cake. It is very sweet of you, Si!
Thanks to Papa and Mama for the birthday gift, the 50mm Canon lens! I love it very much! And for the package from Beijing, jam-packed with good food!
Thanks to hubby for the birthday gifts that are yet to come. Tee-hee...

OK, time to have lunch now. Hopefully, I'll have the mood to post something tomorrow :)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Happy

Since the crazy rain, it has been extremely cold here in Liverpool. It is just the perfect weather for snuggle and snooze under the blanket. Man, you would not want to go outside on this cold weather. Yesterday, to attend my weekly meeting with my supervisors, I was wearing full 'armors'! Thick gloves, hat, wind-proof jacket, two layers of pants and so many layers of tops! And it was still so COLD! It's like going into a freezer, except this is a huge outdoor freezer!
Anyhow, I am still thankful for yesterday! After quite a long discussion of my research (well mostly, me talking about what I've done and my founding!), my supervisors gave me positive feedback. They said that I've progressed much quicker than I was in June & July - when I was sort of in a depressing and discouraging time of life! (read here) They are very happy with my progress and the 'TLC tableau rules' that I've proposed looks promising. Of course that makes me super duper happy! Praise The Lord for that! My confidence is boosted and, most importantly, I feel happy about myself, about what I am doing. And I am happy that Lan is happy for me. :)

Lan was sick with a cold yesterday and running fever every now and then. I ended going home after the meeting and be with him. At night I gave him our Chinese-Indonesian traditional treatment for cold: KEROKAN (in Chinese Gua Sha). And, as a result, I can feel pain along my right arm up to my right shoulder. Argh!
The good thing is that Lan is much better today! He's healthy and energetic, but his back feels sore! LOL!

Anyhow... somehow, I ended up catching his cold now :( Not good!

Oh... want to know why I scrap?

Credits:
press plate template No. 19 by Paislee Press Designs.
Beautiful Life by Tracie Stroud.

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Crazy rain!

Today, for one WHOLE day, it's been raining crazily! Gosh, I've never seen so much rain like that! Thank God, the drainage system here is good. No doubt, it will cause a flood if it were in Indonesia! LOL!

Rain always makes me dream of snuggles and cozy sleep! Hot chocolate sounds blissful... Mmm... That sounds much better than being stuck in the cold office or out and drench in the rain! Uh oh! That reminds me, when we walked back home for lunch, I was like a drenched cat, all wet! Wet socks and wet bag!

I wish Liverpool would not rain so much... I wish there is a good balance of sunshine and rain. And I know, I can only wish...

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Spoiled

All of us what to be spoiled (dimanja), don't we? Each of us have different preferences on how we want people to spoiled us. Some feel they are spoiled when they are given gifts, some when they are given attention, some prefers going out for a dinner and many others.
Well, yesterday, I just found out a new thing about Lan. As a single child, I know that his parents spoil him a lot. You can say that, in some ways, he is the EXACT opposite of me. As the first child, I get to step back for my siblings. My parents taught me strictly and I don't get spoiled so much. Hence, I am really not good at spoiling somebody, including my hubby... And, it created troubles!
He became somewhat depressed due to me not spoiling him the way he wants it to be. He likes to 'buy' things, just for the sake that he likes it, which most of the time it's either so expensive or not quite useful! I tend to say 'no' to those things! "We are students, after all! We are saving for the future.", that's what I always say to him.
In the marriage, when one of us becomes unhappy, everybody is unhappy. It was like a bomb with a timer ticking away ready to explode soon! And it did... It was a hard two days in the weekend, but we came out strong at the end. We learnt more about each other. Now, I make effort to pay attention to spoil him a bit more than before. Of course, it's still under the condition that it is acceptable and reasonable requests. We try to balance each other, make us both happy. That's how our marriage works.
As for me, he knows what I want. Attention and quality time. More than that is a plus. :)

So, what will make you feel you're spoiled by your spouse?

Friday, October 30, 2009

Thanks!

Dearest friends,
Thank you very much for your positive encouragements regarding living in Beijing. It makes me, somewhat, feel rest-assured... In addition, I will still have to wait until I finish my PhD to move there and I am hoping that I can finish it early, so that Lan would not have to 'wait' too long in the UK with me. I notice that living costs are getting higher here and jobs are getting harder to get. But, I appreciate it very much that Lan has decided he will stay here until I finish my study.
We don't really want to be apart from each other for too long... It's too awkward and being alone paralysed me. I get used to living with a hubby by my side all the time!

Dear Noni (and all of my dear friends), off course, I will accompany you to go around Beijing and I hope, by then, we can offer our place for you to stay! :) I just hope I won't get you all lost! LOL!

Just a few minutes ago, I heard a song at Nafiri FM online streaming... I wrote below the part that touches me. It makes me say to myself: This is so true! He's the only One I can depend on all the years of my life. He never fails me.
Apapun yang terjadi di hidupku, tak pernah di luar perhitunganMu.
Sampai kapanpun kudapat selalu mengandalkanMu di tiap langkahku.

English:
Whatever happens in my life, nothing is ever outside Your calculations.
Until forever, I know I can always count on you in every step I take.

Thank you, Jesus!


Just a bit on scrapping... Yesterday, I stayed at home feeling dizzy. My Mum guessed it might be the low blood pressure (Yep, I do tend to have a very low blood pressure!). So, I decided to fill my time with scrapping our newest family photos...

Credits:
The good earth, a collab by Scrap Orchard Designers and Sweet Shoppe Designs Designers.
Mask from So Useful Masks Watercolor from Designs by Sine
Word art from So Useful Fade outs Vol 2 from Designs by Sine
Just a bit brassy alpha by Michelle Batton Designs.
Font: Pea Jordan

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Someday in Beijing...

I will be!
I have mixed feelings about this 'absolute' future of mine. There are fears, happiness, excitements and many others. All in all they all cannot be described as purely bad nor purely good! However, above all, I know it's for good reason. :)
Being the only child, Lan wishes to take care of his parents in their old times and to be close to them (physically). I am glad that he has such a kind and beautiful heart... because I know these days, there is a crisis in the society, where the kids/the young ones cannot wait to put their parents in the nursing homes! So, I completely agree with his reasons of coming back to Beijing and settle down there for awhile.

Let's talk about my fear first. The obvious one will be LANGUAGE! Even after 2 years of marriage, I am still considering myself dumb on Mandarin. I try *probably NOT my hardest* to learn the language. Listening to Mama, Papa, and Lan having conversation every Saturday, trying to talk to Mama Papa and even to Lan. But, gosh, I find it hard to remember words. LOL! I keep telling myself to relax, maybe the only thing I need to learn Mandarin is to BE there in Beijing, where I shall force myself to speak it. Ummm... I might have a damaged brain afterward though! LOL!
The not-so-obvious one is whether I will be comfortable living there... I am not a big-city girl. I lived in Denpasar, Shepparton (Australia) and Liverpool, which are all not huge cities. So unlike Beijing, which is the capital city of the most populated country in the world! I wonder how will I get the hang of going around without getting lost myself there in Beijing... *thinking that one day, Lan will have to go to work and I'll be a stay-at-home-mother*
I really pray that The Lord will give me enough patience to cope and get comfortable living in Beijing.

What's excited about Beijing? I'd say FAMILY! I am so blessed that Lan's family loves me very much *Yeah! I am that confident! ;p* Mama Papa loves me like they love their very own daughter. And I can't wait to spend more time with them and, (hopefully, by then, I'd be able) to have conversations with them too!
Family also means the new additions! Yeah, I am such a bad baby-fever! I am sure Papa Mama will be thrilled to have grandchildren! I can already picture how they gonna love their grandchildren to bits.
Second reason why it's exciting is new places! Being in Liverpool from 2002 makes me feel a bit bored of it... It's good, but, as a developed country, the development, the changes are so slow! It's not as dynamic as Denpasar, where they have new things every now and then.
Thirdly, our OWN flat. I am praying hard on this. We are planning to buy a 3-bedrooms flat in Beijing, when we settle down there. We know that the prices are expensive and it is hard to get reasonable price if we want good location. But, we ALSO know that nothing is impossible with God. So, we persevere! In addition to that, Lan is letting me decorate our home to our likings! Yay!!! I love decoration-shopping... there will be a trip to IKEA, B&Q, and many other furniture shops. Woo hoo!
Last but not least, good food and cheap prices! Yay!! Can't beat good food, indeed!

Oh well... this post more-or-less was to get things off my chest. It will be interesting to read this again in a few years, when I finally live in Beijing. I wonder whether most of points are really true and whether my fears are merely nothing but my own animated fears. We'll see...

Friday, October 23, 2009

Some of my very meaningful LOs.

Lately, I have been making some LOs that are quite dear to me... I'd like to share them with you. :) First of all, is the LO I made with the photos we took when we went to the pumpkin patch in Warrington. (Since, I'm to lazy to upload one by one to FB, I thought, the easiest way of doing it would be putting the best ones together and scrap them in a layout!) Here it is:


Credits:
SO Topped Template, Designs by Sine.
Harvest Spice, October Mega by Scrap Orchard Designers.

I have made this one using Designs by Sine's SO Topped Template pack! Oh, I forgot to say that, the lovely Sine had invited me to join her fun Creative Team (CT)! I feel so honored to be joining her team! I love her templates!
I have to say, I love how the LO turns out! Those photos hubby took are stunning! Love the striking orange of the pumpkins in each and every photo! :D

Another one that is very lovely to me is... dedicated to our not-yet-here little baby. Yep, this is the very first LO for our Zhang junior!


Credits:
Template from when... template pack by Digiland Designs.
Everything from Good Night by Amy Stoffel.
Artsy Edges from Michelle Batton's Designs.
Fonts: La Pointe's Road, Certain Tea.

My journal in this page is about Lan buying the very first toy for our dear junior. Something that I really want to keep as a memory, so that, one day, our junior can read this and know what his/her first toy is!
Another one that is not as recent as the other two would be one I made for Lan... It simply says it all...


Bouille Template 14
A la Croisee des coeurs by Kalina
Wordart from Elegant Wordart by Bethany.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Rawr-o-Saurus & blog train...


Today, Michelle Batton is releasing a brand new fantabulous kit at The DigiChick, it's Rawr-o-Saurus!!!! The dinosaurs on Michelle had made are so cute! This kit is so gorgeous and versatile! It can be used both to scrap a boyish and girly LO! It's even great to make a non-dinosaur LO! On top of that, who can resist such a cute alpha?! I LOVE the alpha in this kit!
Check my non-dinosaur LO here...

Love it? What are you waiting for? Get shopping! This kit is on sale for 20% for today and tomorrow ONLY!
Ah, also, we, Michelle's team has prepared some gifts for you! It's a blog freebie train! Apparently, you are at stop #7 (last stop)! And here is what you get at this stop:

Click on the preview above to download or you can go HERE. And, if you somewhat missed the other 6 freebies (there are 7 freebies including the one above), hop on Michelle's blog to get you back on track! Here is what's waiting for you at Michelle's blog. You'll be sorry to miss it!

Well, have fun!!

UPDATE: If you are having trouble with BOX.net, try downloading the QP HERE.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Weekend in Warrington

After so much contemplation and googling, I decided to tow Lan along to Warrington. There was a 'pumpkin day' at Kenyon Hall Farm, and I'd love to go and see what it looks like. Lan was hesitant, he didn't really buy the idea of going to a farm just to see a pumpkin patch! Not interesting, as he said, but he still went for me... Bless him for that!
So, Saturday morning, we headed to Lime Street Station at around 10.10am, to catch the 10.22am train to Warrington. Guess what? We missed it just by seconds! Thank God the train passing Warrington runs every several minutes or so, we did not have to wait long.

The journey on the train between Liverpool and Warrington is around 20-30 minutes. As soon as we got to Warrington, we got on a 15-minutes journey to the farm by taxi. Well, the farm is actually at the outskirts of Warrington. The taxi driver was very kind to give us his mobile number, so we can ring him when we are done... I can't imagine getting a taxi there. It's sort of in the middle of nowhere!
First impression of the farm: Smelly! Yep, there is this strong farm-ey smell in the air, not so pleasant, but we got used to the smell quite quickly. Kenyon Hall Farm is a family business of a nice couple of middle-aged. They sell fresh produce of their farm; onions, carrots, some berries, pumpkins, squashes and many others!
I was a bit disappointed to see the pumpkin patch though... Most of the pumpkins were already harvested and put in the shop, instead of being left on the patch. So, in the end, I just chose a pumpkin out of the shop-shelf. The good thing about it is the country-side air. It was different from the city air. It was fresh and crispy! And we were very blessed with a DRY weather! It was not sunny, but it was dry! :)
We picked a small-medium sized pumpkin, which were suggested by the lady owner, in the hope of making pumpkin soup! I got some home-made strawberry jam, which looks very very yummy! Oh, of course, we took some pictures there... which are still nesting in our camera's memory card right now. LOL!

Then, we headed to IKEA! I was super excited and we spent hours there!
First thing first was LUNCH! Ikea's Swedish meatballs are yummy! And we were so full and satisfied of our lunch. Then we started our little 'adventure'.
Well, the aim of our tour in IKEA is to get some idea for home interior designs. We both agreed that we have our own styles and preferences of how our future home will look like. So, it's a good exercise to go to such a shop where we can point out to each other 'this is what I like!', 'this is what I don't like'. We knew each other better for that sense!
From the long tour, we picked up some designs/ideas that we both agreed upon. Some sketches on how our future home will look like! And I love the experience! It was very fun indeed! Believe me, I am very excited upon getting a flat of our own, so I can start 'designing' our home! LOL! (the word 'design' always makes me excited somehow!)
It's not going to be very soon, but it is still in the near future (say within 2-3 years). We are hoping to settle down in Beijing after we both graduated from PhD. Woohoo! And, by that time, I will picture myself as a Stay-at-Home-Mother and having our juniors!

I feel so blessed! I am so thankful and grateful to see and realise that The Lord really provides and take a great care of us. I hope you, my friends, see and realise the same thing in your lives too!

God bless and have a great week!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Psalm 91

This week has been a strange week for me. For two nights in a row, I got a series of similar dreams; scary dreams, dreams that woke me up with no peace to return back to sleep. Dreams of someone - a black silhouette - that came through our window like a thief. It scared the hell of me! I am really NOT keen of nightmares!
The second night was the worst... I woke up panicking for who-knows-what. I tried anything on top of my mind to calm myself, but nothing worked until I prayed. Prayers are really powerful, incredible!
Never ever underestimate the power of prayers! It works, believe me!

Psalm 91
Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God
1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.

9 Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”

Monday, October 12, 2009

About birthdays

Uh Oh! I'm so sleepy right now. Last night I took a sore-throat medicine that always successfully knocks me out to sleep even when the sun has risen! I tend to be blurred and it's difficult to concentrate when I'm so out of space like this. My brain and body are in different paces; brain says do A, body does D! Anyhow, let's get back to the topic I'd like to discuss today: *drum rolls* BIRTHDAYS! (This is a response to MJ's Mummy's comment about my brothers' birthdays being so close to each other)

In my family there is this weird pattern of birthdays, an order, shall we say? One set of birthdays in the early months of the year and another set in the end of it.
The first set is started with my Mum's birthday, which is on January 3rd, followed by Papa Mama's birthday both in February, separated by one day! Mama on 21st and Papa on 23rd. Then comes March, 1st is my little sister, Grace's birthday and 3rd is my Dad. April, which is also the end of this first set of birthday is Lan, on the 13th.
So, there..., we have 4 months in a row of 6 birthdays!

Then, the set for the ending of the year starts on September 15th, which is my little brother, Han-Han's birthday! Continuing on October 6th is my first brother (It's so hard to explain this... first brother meaning my first younger brother; I have 2 brothers both younger.), Erwin's birthday. At last, it's mine on November 18th.
So, the latter one is not so bad, it's only 3 of us really. However, if I consider my Mum's big family, in November there are 3 days in a row of birthdays for 4 people. 17, 18, 19 November are birthdays for my uncle (17), me and a cousin (18) and my auntie (19). LOL! That's too big to be a coincidence isn't it? :p

And this year comes to mark my age as a quarter of a century. To say that time slips by me, it's not wholly true! I have to say to myself that I've done a lot of things that I wanted to do all these years! I've got to see the world through my own eyes and made my own views on how things are. I have achieved *All praises and honours only to my dear Lord, Jesus!* beyond my imaginations. And I am content.
From now, I will teach myself to do things not only for myself, my future, my achievements. Instead, it will be for my hubby, my family, my dear children, and above all, for my Jesus. They are my priorities. The reasons I live.
I am viewing my first quarter of a century as a chapter titled "ME". I'm entitling the second quarter as "FAMILY", which will soon start. And it sounds good... :)

God bless your week, my friends! And thanks for reading my babbles! LOL!

Ps. Thanks ya Arman for correcting me! Hehehe it was supposed to be 'century' not decade! LOL! Thanks to my sleepy head of mine, I just made very silly mistake :P

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Big retirement SALE!


Scrap Orchard is having a huge retirement SALE!!!! They are cutting the prices up to 65% off!!! Isn't that a massive saving?! So, what are you waiting for? Go to Scrap Orchard now and have a shopping spree!!
Hurry, this sale is only on from today until Wednesday, 14 October 2009!

Thursday, October 08, 2009

La Cucina, Gimme Candy and October Nights.

I have been busy with my scrapbooking activities lately. And today, it seems that all the designers decided to release their kits! LOL! So, here we go...

First, I am enjoying my time very much guesting at LCC by Amy Stoffel! The girls are fun and Amy designs gorgeously! She released 2 new kits this week at the Scrap Orchard! The first one is perfect for scrapping all your cooking/dining photos: La Cucina.

Isn't that cute? Here is what I made with it:

Next is the Halloween-y kit, Gimme Candy

My LO:



This month I am also joining Michelle Batton's Creative Team. Her team is also fun. Thank you, Michelle, for inviting me to be in your CT!! Your designs are awesome!
This week, she's releasing a paper pack, October Nights and an alpha, tag! You're It.
I especially LOVEEEE the alpha!!


Here is what I did with these two awesome packs:


So, what are you waiting for? Go and shop! They are ALL on SALE for 20% off, this week! Don't miss the bargain. :)

Autumn Gold and a freebie

Well, we went to the dentist yesterday and had successfully pulled Lan's tooth out with no major problems! In fact, I think he is getting the hang of it better and better! I'm very much blessed that he is improving so much about this dentist thing.
And, for now, he can sit out for 3 months to let the wound heal and the gum reshape, before he gets his replacement. So we have arranged his next appointment on 07th January 2010!
Gosh... can't believe it's almost the new year again! Time just sprints right through me these days!

I do look forward to next year though, because we are planning to have a junior next year. I am having baby fever real bad lately and really excited that soon Lan will finish his study and will be working. I pray that The Lord has provided him the right job as soon as he finishes study.

Onto digi-scrapping, today, Rena has released a new 'Autumn' kit, called Autumn Gold. It's loaded with beautiful golden yellow-colored elements, which I really love. Here is the preview of the kit:

Here is some LOs I made with it.
The first one is for my parents with the Tiramisu cake, Lan and I bought for their anniversary. It was a yummy cake from IXORA! Thanks a lot, Tante Julia for such an awesome cake!

This one I used the photo of my cousin, Chelsea. Since she's staying with my parents, she became the perfect candidate for my photography exercise, hehehe...

And, last but not least, I also have prepared a little freebie for you. I made my second LO to a QP. If you like it, please do leave some love for me. Thanks!

Click the picture above, to download the freebie, or you can download it HERE.

Have a blessed day! I am so happy it's sunny today :)

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Vacay 09 (5): Dentist!

First thing first: Happy birthday, dear Erwin! May The Lord be your blessings, your shield, your guidance, your Father and best Friend! Amen!
Until we see you again!


Every time I go home, I always pay a visit to the dentist to check my teeth. I am proud to say that in my family, I've got the healthiest teeth among us the adults (Papi, Mami, Erwin and I). Although they are not genetically white, but my teeth are healthy and rarely have holes. That's the most important thing above all, whitening is not necessary and so d*mn expensive anyway! So, I'll just live with the way they are.

Well, this holiday, I went again, literally, dragging Lan along with me. He hates dentists! He is scared of them! But, he promised me. A promise is a promise, he knew that! He's been having bad-smell-breath problems for quite a long time and I make a LOT of fuss about it! Simply because my nose is very very sensitive, way too sensitive compared to his. And this bad-breath is bugging me so much!
So, whether he liked it or not, I had to drag him to dentist!

The first time we went, Mami & Erwin came along. Oh gosh! It was nerve-wrecking! He was so nervous that his face was so white so pale as if he just saw ghosts! He was sweating insanely, freaking out and panicking. I was head over heel trying to calm him down, he wouldn't even talk to me. And that was when we were actually still sitting at the waiting room!
Then, in we went. Since Erwin wanted a check-up, too, we decided that Lan should have his go first, before he breaks into pieces.
As he sat on the dental-chair, he held the hand-rest so tightly. I could see he was so panicky. He became touchy even talking to me! Well, the dentist said, as I expected, his teeth are BAD! Two of them must be pulled out and some have to put tooth-filling. As I told him that, he grew berserk! But, at the end, he agreed for some tooth-filling; 2 majors and a few minors. The doctor, seeing him so nervous, even prescribed him some painkillers! That's how bad he was... Then, she let him think it through about getting rid of his bad teeth, since we had to return the next week to finish of the tooth-filling process.

That whole week was madness! I tried to talk to him that those teeth are real BAD! They are infected and in bad shapes. He said he would think about it, but, he showed it that he already made his decision: NO! Argh... I persuaded, I talked through him, we fought, we cried, we were angry to each other... And, thank God, he agreed to pull ONE tooth! Bless him! That was under the condition that I will always be with him, translate for him, and finally that we paid the expense, not Papi and Mami.

The second visit to the dentist was better. He was in a better shape, much more cheerful. And I fulfilled the condition of our trade. And, there he was... saying "It wasn't as painful as I imagined it would be." -Gee.- But, I am so glad, so relieved that the experience actually gives him confidence to conquer his fear of dentists!
Then... - some of you might know that I'm BAD at giving up! - I tried for the second time, for the second tooth! LOL! I'm so cheeky aren't I? Oh well, it's for his goodness, not mine (well, it's also for my comfort :p). It was a straight NO at first, but my effort became fruitful: Another promise. He wants it done in UK.
Oh well, that's better than nothing. Yeah it will be expensive, but, it will be done. Coz, when it's a promise, I'll hunt until it's fulfilled! LOL!

So, we are very very blessed that we found an NHS dentist straight a way and not too far from our flat. Having an NHS dentist means that some of the treatment costs will be subsidised by the government, i.e., yeah it is expensive, but it is still affordable in a way...
Last Tuesday was his very first appointment, where the doctor checked his whole mouth and agreed that there is a tooth that needs to be pulled. Lan is still nervous going to dentist, but he is in a much better shape about it now. And, I think, his confidence grew on him. =)
This Wednesday, we are going back to pull the tooth and to have his teeth cleaned. He's deciding to get bridges as replacement of those 2 teeth that are pulled out, instead of dentures. Isn't he a brave boy now? He decides! Yay! That's more important and precious than the price we are paying for those treatments.
In total it will be around £500 to get those treatments done. But, boy, it's worth it!

Thank you, Jesus, for softening Lan's heart, for guiding him to grow brave and to overcome his fear.
How do I describe You, O Lord...
You are the gentle Sun-rays through the icy cold winter.
The blooming Buds of spring flowers.
The cool Breeze through the scorching-hot summer.
And the beautiful golden Leaves of fall that bring warmth.
You are always here with me, through the seasons.

- nie, Mon 05 Oct 2009.

Ps. No photos for this one. Lan will be grumpy if I take his photo while he's nervous. And, although there are some photos of his teeth (mouth opened up), I don't think it's appropriate to show you those! LOL!

Monday, October 05, 2009

About the weather + Freebie...

I just got to the office a few minutes ago. Ugh... here comes Monday plus all the businesses that it brings! Today, as we walked from home to the office, we cringed at the cold weather. It's Fall/Autumn here. Yes, the air is crispier and the scenery looks so beautiful with all the leaves turning golden brown, some blown by the wind. But, somehow, it feels more like WINTER already! It's too cold for Autumn.

Gosh, I've been in Liverpool from 2002 and, yet, I can never get used to this extreme weather. It's as if from Summer, we just go straight to Winter. That-is-not-nice! Or could it be because I just came back from our tropical weathered vacation, that I feel it's extremely cold? I am already wearing two layers of pants and 3 layers of tops, but I am still feeling the cold. Geez... is that something wrong with me? Or the weather?
I just hope this winter will not be as bad as last winter, where I got my eczema really bad. Oh, I don't really want to remember that... it was a dark season for me. This year, Lan and I are having more preparation to 'combat' this eczema! This weekend, he just bought me an electric under blanket, which makes my bed real warm at night. It makes my bed very comfortable (Thanks Honey!). I also anticipate it by wearing more clothes. Because, somehow, as the doctor said, it's the cold weather that my skin is not happy with... It makes my skin becomes very dry, thus, cracks and wounds easily. Hence, the eczema.
So, please pray, as the winter comes nearer, for me so that eczema will not get near me! Amen!

Onto, digi-scrapping, which I am madly involved in, right now...
Rena Designs have just released a new kit today, it is named In Turquoise. And as the name suggested, this kit is full of gorgeous turquoise-colored elements. Check out the preview:



And since I am in the mood of giving a freebie, I have turned my second LO to a quick-page. Feel free to download and use it. And please leave some love if you really like it, it will certainly encourage me to give out more freebies in the future.


Get the quickpage (QP) freebie HERE.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

My Belief


There is this nice challenge in Scrap Orchard today. It's a challenge to scrap a page without any photo on it. And it suddenly popped into my mind that I haven't scrapped about my beloved Jesus yet. So there came my inspiration. I really love how it turned out, so I thought of putting it on my blog.

Credits:
Everything from Rainy Afternoon from LCC by Amy Stoffel.
WA from Elegant Wordarts by Bethany.

Both are selling at Scrap Orchard.

Ps. Click on the image for a larger version.

Friday, October 02, 2009

Vacay 09 (4): Fun with Yulia!!!

I've been wanting to continue writing about my holiday, but gosh... I've been in limbo! My body feels like it's not mine and keeps giving me this weird unhealthy feeling. Well, luckily, I found this medicine that really helps me to rest, it knocks me out to sleep soundly (and it gives me hard time to open my eyes in the morning!) It's like a drug, but a good drug! LOL!

Anyway, I insist to write about the important things that happen during our vacation this year, although it's been gone far, because I don't want to forget any bits of it... It's too precious to me!
If I remember correctly, Yulia arrived at my home on 27th August 2009 by BMW Travel Bus from Surabaya. She had been on TNI-AL ship for 3 weeks by then on a diving mission. Forgive me for making you wait for me to get up, sist! I was so tired that I did not even hear that you've arrived!
I was so happy to see you! I even could not wait to give you the gifts Lan and I had for you; one very special gift I made myself upon your request, I knitted a little cushion with two dolphins on it - as your birthday gift, and another is a little souvenir from Dubai. I really hope you like them!
Also, thanks for the crackers that you brought from Makasar! Hehehe, yummy!

So, we spent days together. In my family, you are another daughter, another sister! We love you!
We rent Toyota Avanza for 2 days - the first day, it was a Saturday, 29 August. We, Lan, you & I, picked Hans and Grace from school and then we rushed to Waterbom! We had so much fun there and did not go home until we were sort-of the last person to be there! LOL! Too bad that Lan is not as brave as us on the wild-rides! However, that made it perfect! We went together, the two of us on the ride, our own bonding time! =) We screamed and laughed together! Tiring, but absolutely fun!
Then, in the lazy-river pool, the 5 of us played together for hours! Hehehe... So sweet is the memory! Even Lan was enjoying himself that he just could not be bothered to get the camera from the locker room! LOL! (Psst... do you still remember when he screamed on the first ride?! "Honey... I'm a chicken!" LOL! It made us laugh so hard!)

The second day, it was Monday, 31st August. We went to buy a surprise present from you for my parents - The Orchid, my mum's favorite! I still remember the time when we were gift-wrapping it, fearing that my parents might come too soon! LOL! Even you, who is quite experienced at helping your mum to be a florist, were nervously shaking. Hihihi! But, we should be proud of ourselves! We made it on time! :)

We then went to Dreamland Beach! It was our second time going together there, the first time we went there was after my wedding, 2 years ago!
This time, many has changed in Dreamland, but we refused to NOT have fun! In fact, we ended up having fun picking seaweed (for your mum) while watching so that the waves won't wet us. We spotted some sea snails (which I was disgusted of!), sea urchin and a wild-looking crab. We watched sunset too! Then we were rushed to the car by the heavy rain!
After so much fun, it was time to fill our hungry stomaches! Our one and only destination was JIMBARAN! We did get lost though hehehe... but we made it there safely! We ate like crazy, didn't we, sist? The food was so delicious and with such great companion, it became even more delicious. :) We went home bloated! LOL! But, that's not all! You felt like moon-light cake (terang bulan/martabak manis)... Hihihi I still remember Lan's face when you 'tortured' him with the delicious smell of moon-light cake! He wanted it, but he's wayyyy to full!

Our journey continued in Jakarta for several hours... It was in between our arrival from Denpasar and departure to Dubai. Thanks for picking us up, sist! And for the treat at Chez Inggrid! Too bad we didn't get to taste the cheesecake, but those cakes you ordered were yummy! Ummm... Can you send some of those here? LOL! Thanks also for letting us 'borrow' your bathroom for shower before we go. It is always a fun time when you are around! OH, there's more, thanks for the anniversary gift and the diary! I had great time reading your diary. Hehehe... Thanks for the honesty and the opened heart you have towards me! You are truly my bestest friend! I love you with all my heart, sincerely!

Urban Dreamer by Amy Stoffel

This month, I am so happy that I can be a guest in Amy's Creative Team (CT). Her CT is so fun and I am enjoying myself there, the girls are so awesome and Amy herself is incredible. I really wish I could stay in the CT permanently for forever!!! It's just too fun there!

So, anyway, this week, Amy has this funky, cool and totally gorgeous kit called Urban Dreamer



What's more is that when you buy this kit, you'll get a set of matching cool frames for free! How cool is that?



It wasn't enough to make just one LO with this funky kit! I made TWO! Believe me, it's so fun to scrap with!




And since Amy is such an awesome person (I've told you that before, right??), she's made this freebie alpha to coordinate with Urban Dreamer, which you can snag it at her BLOG


Cool isn't it??? Then, what are you waiting for? Go and get shopping! :)