Showing posts from August, 2006

I am now engaged!

Tuesday, 29th August 2006 has became a special day for both Lan and I. Why? Well... let me tell you the story.
Around five in the afternoon, Lan rang me telling me not to cook, because he will treat me for dinner. So I just waited with no thought of what will happen afterward.
In the middle of me watching Marrying a Mafia, my phone rang again. It was Lan, saying that he is outside the entrance door of the hall I live. It was about six o'clock. I quickly paused the movie, grabbed my keys and ran to open the door for him.

When I met him at the door, he was formally clothed and holding a bouquet of roses (and a plastic bag). I was surprised... for him to buy me a bouquet of roses in United Kingdom was the first time, I don't ask for it, because I know flowers are quite expensive here. Suspicion came to me for awhile along with the question 'what is he up to this time?!'. But I quickly brushed it off thinking that maybe he was just being nice since we only have several days l…

Trying to relax

Finally, writing up dissertation is finished. I am waiting for my supervisor's feedback at the moment, so that I can polish it up for the final touch. Time feels so slow and yet so fast...
On one hand, I want it to slow down and give me more time to spend with Lan. On the other... I want to see my family. I can't help but cry if my thoughts come across this. So many 'what if' rise up between us in our conversations that often I have to try hard to hold my tears from rolling down. At least, by doing that, by acting strong, he will be encouraged and his worry will not be added.

The thoughts about the future can be very overwhelming and tiring... So many possibilities and yet so many uncertainties. All I can do and all I WANT to do is to lay my future and his down in Jesus' hands. I know, for sure, He has the best plans for both of us... and whatever happens; whatever comes in front of us, at the end of the day, I will confidently say, "It was worth going through i…


Just feel like posting today...
In the midst of being busy, The Lord has been continually showing His love, mercy and blessings to me. A specific thing that He has opened my eyes to, has made me forever grateful. It adds to the numerous of proofs that He loves me so much, always gives the best for me and has the best plan for my life.
I am so so glad... I cannot even express how glad I am, but, believe me, I am!

Now, I can really say, "I have met the right man," and I admitted my mistake in the past and realized the previous ones (that I thought was right for me) was the wrong ones. The Lord brought them into my life just for temporarily; to teach me lessons. So, I will not regret the fact that they were part of my life, once. Rather than regret, I am thankful.

This posting is vague, isn't it? Hehehe... Never mind.

Have a blessed weekend, everyone!
Without you

From the moment I open my eyes to start the day, you are there...
In everything I do, you are in my mind.
Every where I g…

Till I post again...

I think it's better to let you guys know, rather than just gone missing with no news what so ever... I will be hiatus for an indefinite time (at the most until I finish my dissertation and fly home).

Right now, I have so many things to do and think about. So, I guess, it is better if I focus on the more important things, first.

Until then, God bless you all!

Pretty boy - M2M

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I’ve only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your s…

Away to Manchester

Sorry for not updating for awhile... Been trying to speed up on my dissertation. Since my supervisor will be back next week, I've tried to at least finish up the programming part. The good news is that it only needs polishing up and some testing to do. And soon, I will be writing up my dissertation.

For the weekend, I will be away to Manchester. Spending some time at my friend's house. She is having an Indonesian gathering lunch at her place. So, I am very looking forward on eating some home food. Hehehe...

I will visit you all when I get back. Till then, I hope you have a great weekend! God bless!