Friday, January 27, 2006

Wiken!!

Hupla! No feelings for this weekend. Toh, biarpun weekend, tetep aja ada papers yang harus dibaca and do research on! Yah... semoga punya cukup motivasi untuk menyelesaikannya, kalo gak yah... paling-paling diomelin sama partner segrup.

Hari ini, pulang dari kampus, seperti biasa aku cek mailbox di front-office. Eh... ternyata daku dapet kiriman dari Adjie. Sekeping MP3 CD penuh dengan lagu-lagu rohani! Langsung deh aku bukan and dengerin! Lagunya bagus-bagus! Thank you very much ya, Djie! Jarang-jarang bisa dapet stock lagu rohani baru, apalagi karena di sini CD mahal dan tentunya lagu rohani Indonesia mana masuk pasaran sini?! Hehehe...
Yo wes... gitu wae. Aku dah tepar. Mo tidur, ngantuks!

God bless you all! Have a great weekend!

[Ps. 1] Eh... Gong Xi Fa Chai for those, who celebrate it! Saya selalu bersedia menerima dengan senang hati kalau ada yang ikhlas mau nyumbang hung bao buat saya.

[Ps. 2] Sudah hampir febuary yah... Time flies like mad!

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Naseb anak kuliahan...

Hari ke tiga untuk semester kedua, badan sudah terasa tepar... mata terasa perih dan sakit, otak terasa hang dan serasa perlu istirahat yang super duper panjang. Gak tau ada apa dengan badan ini... memang sih 3 hari ini diforsir terus, di kampus tiap hari dari jam 10 sampe jam 3 atau jam 4 sore *dan kadang ga sempet makan siang* karena urusan lagi banyak-banyaknya. Harus bolak-balik ke bank lah, harus bolak-balik ke kantor lah, ambil surat referensi lah, rapat representasi lah, belum lagi harus ke perpustakaan untuk pinjem buku.
Belum lagi hari ini dapet doorprize dari dosen! Kami disuruh memilih pasangan, jadi satu grup terdiri dari 2 orang. Dan temanku si Lan minta aku satu kelompok sama dia, yo uwis aku langsung setuju wae, lagian dia kan pinter dan rajin. Toh kalo aku tolak, aku mau sekelompok sama sapa? Apanya yang mau dipilih? Wong cowok semua sekelas kecuali aku. Nahhhh!! Doorprizenya itu... ada yang tahu?! Kelompokku terpilih sebagai kelompok pertama yang melakukan research untuk topik yang ditentukan plus presentasi. Nikmat banget yah?!

Tugas membaca mantra-mantra ajaib dari buku-buku yang direferensikan setiap mata kuliah belum selesai, dah dapet tugas kayak begini, yang topiknya kita berdua sama-sama blank! Mantep banget deh yaaa!!
Tapi aku bersyukur banget di sini nih fasilitas tersedia banget. Aku ga bisa membayangkan kalo universitas di sini ga punya perpustakaan. Bisa bangkruttttt!!! Yup! Harga textbook di sini gila-gilaan! Ada yang sampai lebih dari £50.00 (yang kalo dikalikan Rp. 17.000, harganya sudah mendekati satu juta!) So ya... pinjem aja deh dari perpustakaan, meskipun rada kesel juga kalo telat ngebalikin didenda , tapi kalo ga gitu caranya, ya ga bakal tertib.

Yo wis ah gitu aja. Ini curi-curi waktu sebelum tidur untuk update. Aslinya dah tepar banget... mata ini dah perih banget... Kayaknya koq aku memang harus cek mata yah, hiks...

Monday, January 23, 2006

Fallen Expectation

I managed to get myself out of bed on-time this morning, ready to go to Uni. I just ignored the headache so that I don't get bothered by it. Got in to the lecture room as the earliest attendant and was really looking forward to see the new girl person. One, two, three familiar faces came in as the lecture was about to start. Then, a completely unfamiliar face showed up. It was a BOY!!! My friend, Lan, who sat next to me instantly laughing after seeing my face expression. What?! Another boy?! Out of disbelief, it is true... he is the one, who my fried thought was a girl. Yeah... thanks to him, I put my hope high that the person would be a girl. Huhuhu...

So yeah... now it's even tougher for me. A girl competing with 11 boys. Just great and perfect. *Kali ini emang cocok ini posting bertopik "Perawan di sarang penyamun" atau "Kembang di antara kambing". Pilih salah satu deh, yang mana yg sreg buat anda-anda.*

That's not all for the day...
The first week, from the 2 modules I had lectures today, the lecturers both said: "This week is going to be an introductory week. And we are going to talk about some basic stuffs." Yeah... basic?! How come introduction has already talking about the assignments, where we have to split into groups of 2 people and be ready to do research and presentations?? Yet, worse than that, the second lecture we had talk about dynamic logic, temporal logic, and other logics... *I am lost!*

I am really tired today. Extremely tired. Even when I met my friends in a supermarket, she said I look exhausted. Yes, I am. My mind was blank, walking like a robot around city centre. Luckily, I managed to get part of my grocery shopping done. I was alive enough to go to China Town to buy some indomie and went around the market to get some cheap veggies and some lengkeng and leci *very heavy though, my hands felt like falling apart *

Today's weather is so freezing cold and on top of that the cold wind blows so strongly. The forecast predicts that it will get worse as the week goes. Right... Just perfect combinations for me.

Wish me luck in surviving this week and ahead.

Father, I need You to strengthen me.
I need You to fill me up with Your loving kindness...
to be strong enough to face disappointments that come to test me.
to be strong enough to put a smile on my face to brighten other's day.
to not give up walking through the way You want me to go.
and more importantly, to not fail in glorifying Your Name through my life.
Amen.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Painful headache

As requested by Rita

Unexpected as the outcome of a rolling dice is the future of humans.
We never know what may come in the next hour, day, week or year.

- nie @ 22 January 2006

[Ps.] It's not always easy to find such quotes, sayings or thoughts especially when it is a specific request. I tried to think all over again and again to come up with a different quote, but again and again the same quote comes up. And it's the one above. I hope you like it, dd Rwitz!



I did not do much this weekend. Simply because I kept getting the same painful headache from the moment I opened my eyes everyday. It bothers me so much that I start to wonder what causes this pain.
Oen-oen said anemia or even lack of oxygen in my brain... Well those are really something for a guess! And then I asked my dad about it, he said, maybe it's got something to do with my glasses prescription being out of date. Maybe he's right... but then again I feel that my eyesight is fine and just a thought of getting my eyes examined gives me another painful ache. It's too expensive!!!
It's so unfair! Why do I have to pay to get my eyes examined here in the UK when I can check my eyes for free at home?!
The headache makes me don't even want to get up from bed since it is so painful... arrrghhh how am I supposed to get up tomorrow to go to uni early in the morning with this pain?!
It all begins again tomorrow... the deadly assignments and not-fun-at-all lectures. The second semester has arrived!

Well... I wish you all a blessed week ahead! Take care!

Friday, January 20, 2006

Hujan Badai & Nostalgia

Sekali-kali break dulu ah posting pake bahasa Inggrisnya.
Kenapa yah hari-hari libur tuh selalu bergulir cepat sekali?! Menyebalkan! Hari Senin, besok lusa, aku sudah mesti kembali ke Universitas. Kembali ke kehidupan yang setiap harinya bolak balik kampus 5 days a week. Gak kerasa banget sudah memasuki pertengahan kurikulum jurusan Master. Aku yakin di balik semua stress serta kesibukan yang nantinya harus aku nikmati derita, waktu akan berjalan dengan tidak terasa sampai-sampai aku tersadar bahwa semuanya sudah berakhir. Yah... kita lihat saja bagaimana aku akan bertahan.

Kenapa judulnya nyebut hujan badai? Huhuhu... tadi pagi subuh-subuh Liverpool diterpa hujan badai. Hujannya deres banget dan anginnya kencenggggg setengah mati! Sampe aku kebangun dari tidur. Gara-garanya itu, air hujan yang menerpa jendela bunyinya nyaring bener! Aku sempet takut kacanya bakal pecah. Tapi untungnya itu cuma ketakutanku aja.

Trus trus, koq ada nostalgianya? Huhuhu... malem ini aku janjian dinner dengan teman yang dulu pas ambil BSc kuliah bareng-bareng. Cuma sekarang ini, dia sudah ngumpulin duit utk jd milyuner kerja dan aku masih stuck in studying. Sambil makan di Pier Bistro, French Restaurant, kita banyak ngobrol tentang pro & kontranya kerja dibanding kuliah, trus tentang memories selama 3 tahun kemaren. Berdua sama-sama sedih karena sudah banyak temen-temen yang ngacir dan mencar-mencar gak karuan... Kangen gitu lho hang out bareng-bareng lagi kayak dulu. Tapi yah... life moves on, doesn't it?
Yah... semuanya itu berlalu dengan tidak terasa... meninggalkan memory manis yang akan selalu membekas di dalam benak kita masing-masing.

Niwei... Happy and blessed weekend, friends! God bless you all!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Exam is DONE!

Yipieeeeeee!! The first semester exam is now officially over for me. Now I have almost a week to rest and prepare for the second semester, which starts on Monday. Time is running and flying!!

Anyway, on my second and hardest exam yesterday, I was in a situation that I've never been before. It was two exams held in one theatre. There were about 300 students taking the other exam and 4 of us taking the Master exam. And guess what? Among those many people, I was the only female! Even the exam supervisors were both males. And during the 150 minutes exam, I think those supervisors noticed and talked about me being different. Hohoho... I feel like a man there!

However, my friend told me that I won't be the diva the only girl anymore in the class, because there is a girl coming to the course this semester. Well, I hope that's true, because I desperately need a friend of my kind: a female friend.

I think that's all for now, friends! I hope you enjoy the rest of the week with God's abundance blessings!

You are The Architect, Lord...
Build me to be a house, in which You will be pleased to dwell within.
Amen.

- nie @ 17 January 2006.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Say a little prayer

Praying HandsThat's right... one thing that keeps me alive all these years was prayers. Honestly, as a person, I am fragile inside. I cry easily, break down easily, worry easily, want to give up easily and complain about this and that easily, too... This is the real me. One that makes my parents, especially my Mum, worry so much.
However, there is one powerful thing in this world that can keep a person alive, even the most fragile person. It's PRAYER. I am thankful, so much grateful to those, who never fail to say their prayers for me each time of their lives; my parents, my brothers and sisters, my friends, my Oma Darto, my family... They all give me strength and the will to carry on living, to continue whatever I'm doing no matter how hard and impossible things are. They all make me feel loved.

I, too, don't get lonely here or there without my family because of prayers... It's a way to communicate with my Lord, my Father in Heaven... Yes, He is my Friend, my Father, my Saviour, The One that makes all things happen in my life, The One that opens the door for me when the world shuts it in front of my face... He is my everything.

I believe, prayers are powerful. There are such things called miracles! If you disagree, just think... life itself is a miracle. And miracles can happen if we have a strong will to pray and to have faith that it will happen.

So... say your little prayer! The Lord never fails, He is always listening, always waiting for you to talk to Him. God bless!

Lord,
Thank you for who You are...
For all You've done in my life.
For those, who pray for me.
For those I've known along the way of my life.
For those, who love me dearly and I love dearly.

And for every breath that You give to me each moment...
Lastly, for this life... one that I have to be grateful most,
for if You did not spare it long time ago, what would I be?
I love you, Lord.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Trims

Thank you for the prayers and the good-luck wishes from all of you for my exams. The first one went well. A one-hour exam with plenty of tricky questions surely gave me something to think about, but it was alright, I think. Not too hard, just required a careful thinking in it.
Well, the next one is not until Monday... that one is the one I am most worried about. It covers so much stuff and I don't even know how to remember all of them. Well... fingers crossed for that one. I just have to do my best in it.

Right now, I am also starting my job hunting. It is something that I have never done and too lazy to do *that's why I escape by doing a Master degree*, but now, I have no way to escape. So I just have to face it and start early. I know I won't finish until September 2006 and won't graduate until December 2006, but I think the earlier the better. That way I'll have more choices and chances in getting into one of those jobs I apply for. So... please pray for me, friends. Thank you very much!

Oh well... that's all for now. I wish you all well! If I don't post until then, have a blessed weekend!

To someone:
Let's continue knitting our days to a beautiful memory.
Take my hands for the second chance.
Pray truthfully that He will permit.
Love you...

[Ps.] This time, be good to me!