Journey of Happiness

Farewell for awhile, my friends. I am going home tomorrow (On The Christmas' Eve) and will arrive at home sweet home on 26th December 2004 to have a 2-weeks holiday at home. The experience of getting a seat on the plane during this peak season has been a miracle from The Lord for me. I feel greatly and deeply blessed by Him. I also feel fortunate to have my family, who helped and encouraged me to not give up and to convince me that I WILL go home. And here I am... Several hours and I'll be on the plane. God knows how happy I am that I will be home soon! It is a great great joy. And so, due to a short holiday that I have at home, I will try to enjoy myself with my family as much as I can. Therefore, I won't update my blog for awhile (I might still check and reply the shoutbox.) For everyone: Have a good celebration of the end of the year. God bless you and the new year coming for you abundantly! *cheers* Also, thank you for all whom have prayed for me regarding the ticket....

Long time no posting here... I have been busy going around to eat at different places with different friends for these several days. This is the time when eating once a day is enough *huff...* I actually feel so so full right now. My friends really fed me well, no matter whom I go to. I feel so blessed with that! Thank God for blessing me with all delicious food. It is like The Lord is helping me to regain my strength to be ready for the exams and the last semester of my Bachelor during this holiday. He knows that I have not been eating properly and much during last semester. Hehehe... Well, another thing that excites me. There is a possibility of me going home this week! It is a MAD MAD plan really! But! Nothing is impossible! My dad's persistence of me going home this holiday is beyond of what I expected of him. He is trying and trying every way so that I can be home as soon as possible. And so please pray for me, so that I can get a ticket this season to go home. I miss h...

Ahhh... finally the holiday is here! Oh well, this week, I haven't got much to do really. I feel so relax... Thank God that project has finished! What left are 3 exams on 12th, 17th and 18th of January 2005 (next year!) and the final marks for them all (3 exams and the project). I am hoping and trying my best to get as good as it possibly can. That's all I can do really. Right now, there is no plan yet what I am going to do for Christmas and New Year's Eve in particular. My friends and I are having a 'end of year' dinner together at one of my friends' place this Saturday. I am planning to cook Soto Ayam for them. *Well, I was thinking about making Gulai Kambing, but then... not all people like lamb. So I thought it's better to stay general. Chicken, most people eat it, I won't have any problem with that.* Then, on Sunday, I am going to my church's Christmas Carol. Hopefully, I'll have fun. I had finished giving all the Christmas presents today...

As I was trying to sit on one of the high chairs, one lady stared at me... "Odd... in a weather as cold as this, this Asian girl is eating a cone of ice cream?!" , that's probably what she thought of me, since she didn't stop staring at me until the time she left the shop. I have been carving for an ice cream several days, and so, I had an ice cream. I felt a bit misplaced by the way she stared at me, but the feeling quickly faded and replaced by a thought of many things as I stared out of the window... The shop is located in the middle between a train station and a big shopping centre. It serves some hot beverages, cakes, ice creams and chocolates. Whether people wants to just enjoy something warm or pop in for a gift (chocolate is handy for a gift, you know.), it is there to satisfy its customers with nice and friendly staffs. However, it was not that which fascinated me. I saw people... I saw couples holding hands and often kissing lightly. They looked ha...

Fiuhhh... Life seems to be more relaxed now... After the hard and busy weeks; Running here and there, thinking there are not enough time to do everything that I have to do, and not forgetting how I always dreamt about assignments and other homeworks every single night. Now I have time to sit and actually do nothing (read: bengong) *huhuhu...* Yep yep... the project is finished now. And the last homeworks were due this week, so next week there will be no homeworks. Some lectures have already finished, so then I don't spend as much time as usual in Uni. It is good, though, I can rest now. All left is the tiredness; I feel exhausted after all of those hard works. Hopefully, it will pay off with good marks. *grins* Tomorrow, I am going to the cinema with two of my friends, to watch The Incredibles . I didn't watch Bridget Jone's Diary 2, since I didn't have time and my other friends have watched it. So, I thought, it's better to watch The Incredibles. Next week is...

Today, I went to Uni thinking that I have a lecture at 10 a.m as usual. Fighting with my sleepiness, I went there on-time and what I found?! No lecture! Oh well... It is rather annoying. I knew that the course is finished but I was hoping that the lecturer will give us revision, but nope, he didn't. Afterwards, I went to the library to borrow a book. I ended up have to reserve the book since all of the books of the same title are on loan. Then I went to Blackwell's bookshop just to wander around. Drawing near to the cards section, it came to think about my Mom. It is my habit to send cards on everyone's birthday in my family. And yes, my Mom's birthday is coming near, 2 days after the New Year's Eve. I almost forgot that since I was so busy with everything in Uni. Thank God, He reminded me. Then, I was confused when calculating how old she would be next year... hahaha... I am doing Maths but I couldn't count *silly me* Ah... years really go quickly... ...

Oh... I feel so relieved now... I have passed the presentation. It went very well eventhough I was actually feeling awfully awful a couple of hours before the presentation. Thanks to my family and my friends, who had given me their continuous supports throughout the day and also every day. Especially my family; my Mom & Dad, also my brother . They were so great... Eventhough they are miles away from me, but I could actually feel the support they were giving me every second of the time. They prayed, they encouraged, they convinced me that I can do it WITH GOD! Thank you, Lord, for giving me a great family! I am so so thankful for them and thankful for Your guidance throughout the presentation. I know, Lord, that without Your Presence there, I would not bear a minute standing in front of those lecturers and my friends. Thank you so much! May Your Name be glorified through the works that You give me the opportunity to do it. Amen. "I care deeply about you. I pray for you constan...

Panah Asmara By. Chrisye feat. Tohpati Berdebar rasa didada setiap kau tatap mataku Apakah arti pandangan itu menunjukkan hasratmu Sungguh aku t'lah tergoda saat kau dekat denganku Hanya kau yang membuatku begini Melepas panah asmara Reff: Sudah katakan cinta sudah kubilang sayang Namun kau hanya diam tersenyum padaku Kau buat aku bimbang Kau buat aku gelisah Ingin rasanya kau jadi milikku Ku akan setia menanti satu kata yang terucap Dari isi hati sanubarimu yang membuatku bahagia Sungguh aku t'lah tergoda saat kau dekat denganku Hanya kau yang membuatku begini Melepas panah asmara Dari pertama kali aku denger lagu ini, aku langsung merenung sejenak akan masa lalu dan tersenyum... Kenangan indah itu... ----- So... my life... I have been extremely busy last week and I am going to be busy again this week... Oh God... I can't wait for 17 December any longer... My holiday, my rest... The time I stop to do all that I have to do for a ...

Friday is coming... The words are out on the streets... "I am going home this weekend! I can't wait!" And the conversation goes on... From one person to another... All I can do is listening to their excitement... "I want to go home, too..." I whisper quietly in my heart... I wish I can... I wish my home is just like their homes... A home that can be reached easily during the weekends by trains or coaches... "Soon, your turn will come and you will know the true meaning of being home more than they do..." I comfort myself... 'Yes, being home for me will mean different for them.' Not just merely for saving my own money by asking my parents to buy my grocery and bringing it back with me on Sunday. Not just to ask my Mum to cook food for me then freeze it for a long term saving, so that I can save the hassle of cooking for myself. No... It is not the same! Being home... Is to enjoy and appreciate that I have the best Mom i...