Saturday, December 09, 2006

After a week

A week has passed away since the tearful moments I had. Yes, I was in shock, too. However, reality wakes me up, this is for real... I'm not dreaming. I guess it's time for...
"The Long Goodbye"

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)


[Chorus x3]

The long goodbye x2
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again x3
Guess I'm never coming back again.

Song by Ronan Keating.

Through this, I thought I'd be alone... but I'm not. I have Jesus, my supportive family (my mum especially! Thanks mum!), and my beloved friends (Esp. Yulia & Mee-a! I know you two were thinking about me a lot).
If it weren't them, I'd be crazy right now, depressed and stressed out. I especially thank my Jesus for holding my heart in the palms of His hands, for listening to my prayers and the knowing how my heart feels. I feel so much better, lively and happier than a week ago, although I have to admit that sometimes it still hurts badly. However, I manage to smile and to play with my little brother and sister. One thing though that's still hard to do... is to sing. My heart is still heavy to do that, but soon, I'll praise and worship Him again with my voices.

Ps. Dear Lan, if you happen to read this, don't feel anything negative or sorry. It was meant to happen the way it is. Instead, I would like to thank you for such a heart that you have, that still wants to befriended with me and for you to always reply my emails as good friend. God bless you always, my friend!

19 comments:

  1. oh my god.

    sherly, aku ikut sedih mendengar kisahmu ini. jangan sedih lama-lama ya sher. pasti ada hikmah dibalik ini semua. pasti.

    supportku penuh untuk kamu, sher.

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  2. Sher, moga kamu cepet bisa get over it ya... When you go back to UK, are you gonna see Lan again? Is it bcus you can't manage it to live in the same country?

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  3. dear, pain is an a** but it will makes us stronger =((

    i can honestly say im not 100% over my last break up yet but time heals the wound, my heart no longer bleed profusely. still cant forget but life gotta move on *sigh*

    God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. aint that rie =)

    love ur new template, have a great weekend darling

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  4. aku akan nelpon kamu secepat mungkin ya?
    aku ada 'keponakan' jd masih repot ngurus

    hang on there, baby...
    god is with us

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  5. Lan sering ol juga ya?? :)

    Tenang aja, ntar perlahan-lahan perasaan sedihnya juga hilang koq. Cepet2 pulih ya... :D

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  6. cuman mau bilang..

    SMILE UP girl....

    di luar masih banyak hal indah lho....

    cayo

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  7. honestly, i'm surprised..
    i thought he's the one that really connected to you..
    well, who knows..

    be strong, girl ;)
    GBU!

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  8. walah,,, jgn sedih2 ya Sher:)

    ayo semangka!!
    masih banyak bule2 yg bs digebet:p
    hehehe...

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  9. Sherly, lama ga mampir yang terdengar malah berita sedih.. *hugs*

    Sabar yah sher, perlahan2 juga sakitnya pasti berkurang kok...

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  10. Sher, tetep sabar yach...kita doain biar sukses studi kamu.

    putus cinta tuh paling engga enak, tapi yach kalopun terjadi ambil positifnya aja.
    kamu nanti makin dikuatkan, hari demi hari.
    Be strong.

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  11. aduh sher, sempet ikutan kaget jg baca ceritanya, be strong ya..

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  12. Dear Sherly, Dari lubuk hati gw paling dalem gw ikut sedih. Doa dan harapan gw semoga Sherly selalu kuat dan selalu ingat bahwa ada Tuhan Yesus yg tidak pernah mengecewakan. Mungkin ini semua adalah cerita cerita kecil yg harus masuk dalam bagian perjalanan cerita panjang kehidupanmu sist. Kuat and GBU.

    XXX Shierly
    http://www.freewebs.com/shierlynet/homepage.html

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  13. OK Sher, ngerti sekarang. Pasti kita2 juga terus bdoa buat kamu dan Lan, Sher. Kenapa yah, kok aku masi berharap kalian bisa balikan lagi ya...

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  14. hehehe habis itu gue segera kembali nge-blog, makanya jadi postingannya hihi :D

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  15. mampir aja...
    semua sdh ngasih semangat
    ssemoga lekas baik.

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  16. Ting tong..
    Satu babak sudah berlalu, satu chapter sudah selesai.
    Sudah siap untuk chapter berikutnya? Mungkin menyenangkan, tapi mungkin juga lebih menyakitkan.
    Sorry, aku 'gak sama sekali menghibur ya. Mungkin yang baca komentku ini malah menyumpah-nyumpah aku.
    Tapi itulah hidup. Waktu adalah sebuah kejutan dan juga tantangan.

    But I'm sure that you are a strong girl. Stronger than you think who you are.
    Tuhan selalu membimbing.

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  17. God have plan for u n maybe he isn't good for u... but u must be stronger :)

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  18. God have plan for u n maybe he isn't good for u... but u must be stronger :)

    -phie2t-

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  19. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah..
    lagunya parah..
    mengiris2 hati niy sher..
    huhuhu..
    be fine ya dear..
    u can get thru this..
    God will help u..

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