After a week

A week has passed away since the tearful moments I had. Yes, I was in shock, too. However, reality wakes me up, this is for real... I'm not dreaming. I guess it's time for...

"The Long Goodbye"

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)

[Chorus x3]

The long goodbye x2
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again x3
Guess I'm never coming back again.

Song by Ronan Keating.

Through this, I thought I'd be alone... but I'm not. I have Jesus, my supportive family (my mum especially! Thanks mum!), and my beloved friends (Esp. Yulia & Mee-a! I know you two were thinking about me a lot).
If it weren't them, I'd be crazy right now, depressed and stressed out. I especially thank my Jesus for holding my heart in the palms of His hands, for listening to my prayers and the knowing how my heart feels. I feel so much better, lively and happier than a week ago, although I have to admit that sometimes it still hurts badly. However, I manage to smile and to play with my little brother and sister. One thing though that's still hard to do... is to sing. My heart is still heavy to do that, but soon, I'll praise and worship Him again with my voices.

Ps. Dear Lan, if you happen to read this, don't feel anything negative or sorry. It was meant to happen the way it is. Instead, I would like to thank you for such a heart that you have, that still wants to befriended with me and for you to always reply my emails as good friend. God bless you always, my friend!